Just Trying to Wink

Dearest JTW,
In my struggle to be unique, I find myself falling to the weaknesses within. Knowing everyone has their expectations; their thoughts for your life; their judgements and delusions, even though they've never experienced what you've been through. I want to tell you about how impressed I've been by what I've seen, but with all the fans running constantly toward you, it's hard to stand out. If I stand back I go unnoticed, but running would blend me into them. "Them" being everything I've worked so hard to avoid. I've given up so many opportunities in life fearing to annoy you as "they" annoy me. Naturally I am not one who'll stand out in a crowd. My personality is one that must be looked for to be appreciated, because if no one looks, I fall through the cracks, and hide in the background. So, where is the median between obsession and oblivion? How do I make you see me, in the sea of faces? When will you notice that my devotion is to the true you, and not the character the rest of them seek? I've adored you from a distance, because the perfect moment for the prince to meet the peasant only comes in movies, it never happens in real life.
Waiting for your attention,
Just One In The Million