It's so sad that I cant stay away from you. It's so hard to feel this need to be held, and know that the one person I could turn to, is also the one person I am trying to avoid. I want to run to you, and I keep trying...but I'm too stubborn to say I need you, and not strong enough to turn away. Instead I just make it worse by contacting you incessantly. I need to stop. I'm trying to stop.